Thursday August 20th marked a year post-diagnosis! In some ways it feels like just yesterday, yet it also feels like ages ago! It’s been quite the journey to say the least!!
To mark the occasion I had every intention of writing this post yesterday (and even tried several times) yet I could not seem to find the words. Perhaps I wasn’t ready! Writing today feels slightly better, although there still is an element of discomfort. Nevertheless I want to give it a try…
When I began to formulate this post a few weeks ago I had wanted to recall how I felt when I received the call from the doctor. Now as I write this post, this idea seems a bit irrelevant and absurd – it really doesn’t really matter! The fact is, it happened and as a result I was catapulted onto a path that I hadn’t anticipated for myself: a path of profound transformation and change.
Serendipitously, while out for dinner tonight my amazing friend Rebeccah invited me to recall some of important changes and/or realizations that had occurred for me over the last year, and although I hadn’t initially intended to do so, this now seems like the perfect place to share these realizations. So here goes…through my experiences with cancer over the last year, I’ve learned/discovered that:
- My body knows far more than I give it credit for. I choose to listen and honour my internal wisdom.
- I have an amazing rockstar support network of friends and family.
- The gift of receiving is a powerful way to honour said rockstar friends and family.
- I want to live in alignment with my values, and I am willing to let go of the things that don’t serve me.
- Things will unfold in unimagined ways when I trust the process of life. Screw the plan!
- Being vulnerable is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength and courage.
- Life is too short to always take seriously.
- I am a work in progress and each challenge is an opportunity to learn and grow from.
- Despite being a work in progress I am enough.
- I am committed to loving life and loving me.
In short, it’s been an incredible year full of unexpected moments, experiences, connections, realizations and growth. I’ve also experienced a range of emotions and feelings that I didn’t even know were possible. My experiences with cancer (and not cancer itself) have been both powerful and profound and I feel forever changed.
As I mark this important milestone I also want to acknowledge all of the incredible people in my life – It’s been an absolute honour to have you alongside me as I’ve traversed this crazy and wild journey. I am also deeply grateful for your support and for bearing witness as I continue to discover the many facets of me! Here’s to health, joy, and love!!!
With grace and gratitude,