A year of transformation and change

Thursday August 20th marked a year post-diagnosis! In some ways it feels like just yesterday, yet it also feels like ages ago! It’s been quite the journey to say the least!!

To mark the occasion I had every intention of writing this post yesterday (and even tried several times) yet I could not seem to find the words. Perhaps I wasn’t ready! Writing today feels slightly better, although there still is an element of discomfort. Nevertheless I want to give it a try…

When I began to formulate this post a few weeks ago I had wanted to recall how I felt when I received the call from the doctor. Now as I write this post, this idea seems a bit irrelevant and absurd – it really doesn’t really matter! The fact is, it happened and as a result I was catapulted onto a path that I hadn’t anticipated for myself: a path of profound transformation and change.

Serendipitously, while out for dinner tonight my amazing friend Rebeccah invited me to recall some of important changes and/or realizations that had occurred for me over the last year, and although I hadn’t initially intended to do so, this now seems like the perfect place to share these realizations. So here goes…through my experiences with cancer over the last year, I’ve learned/discovered that:

  1. My body knows far more than I give it credit for. I choose to listen and honour my internal wisdom.
  2. I have an amazing rockstar support network of friends and family.
  3. The gift of receiving is a powerful way to honour said rockstar friends and family.
  4. I want to live in alignment with my values, and I am willing to let go of the things that don’t serve me.
  5. Things will unfold in unimagined ways when I trust the process of life. Screw the plan!
  6. Being vulnerable is not a sign of weakness, it is a sign of strength and courage.
  7. Life is too short to always take seriously.
  8. I am a work in progress and each challenge is an opportunity to learn and grow from.
  9. Despite being a work in progress I am enough.
  10. I am committed to loving life and loving me.

In short, it’s been an incredible year full of unexpected moments, experiences, connections, realizations and growth. I’ve also experienced a range of emotions and feelings that I didn’t even know were possible. My experiences with cancer (and not cancer itself) have been both powerful and profound and I feel forever changed.

As I mark this important milestone I also want to acknowledge all of the incredible people in my life – It’s been an absolute honour to have you alongside me as I’ve traversed this crazy and wild journey. I am also deeply grateful for your support and for bearing witness as I continue to discover the many facets of me! Here’s to health, joy, and love!!!

With grace and gratitude,






  1. jill

    You are one fine human being.

  2. bhaktilila

    I love you :)

  3. Michael Cox

    I replied but took too long in doing it and it “timed out”– the essence of what I was writing is: although it would be pretty darn hard to be present each moment of each day, what I get from your entries is that you have found, through the pain, the fear, the courage, the support of friends and family, that you are ALIVE in this crazy beautiful world, and that each tear waters the seeds of “nowness,” for lack of a better word: being and loving being here, now, today, whatever it brings.


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